Where's the song ~~ "Don't let your daughters grow up to marry a Cowboy" ?

​​​​​​​Life is tough! Requires hard physical work, long, long days of pain, dirt, and broken fingernails.​
​Days of frigid cold & scorching heat; through the dust & mud; daybreak into the darkness of nite~~​
​the heart & body becomes toughened & weathered replicating leather!​
​A forever constant factor for a real Cowboy's Wife is tons of sweat, oceans of tears and a constant 'drought' in the wallet!​
​​​​​​​​​IF​​​​​​​​​​​​​​ she wants to spend anytime at all with her Cowboy, she must do as he does, you become partners!​
​​​​​​Kick off your boots, grab a cup of coffee, sit back and envision yourself in my life!​
​... It really isn't that bad! There are many rewards to be had to make it a great lifestyle! ...​ ​​​​​​​

Thursday, August 14, 2008

I have been reading...

....the gift I received from Prof,
whilst I wait for a higher Internet connection speed.

(I fired DISH, by the way... the other day, for wasting my time & anticipation...for the numerous "no-show" days of unfulfilled obligation!)
I now wait for our local phone company, who provides Wild Blue also, without the 18 month contract. Yesterday, he came to determine where the contraption will be put without interferences.
Maybe tomorrow, maybe Monday..there is no promise.

This gifted book "Montana Women Writers...A Geography of the Heart" has entrapped me and completely enthralled me, from the Introduction, through the Preface and into the lives and stories of these women writers. No wee hour blogging, just the wee hours spent stepping back into time, reliving their lives, walking in their shoes and memories. Envisioning the portraits they've painted through their words.
I have been there. I have lived those times. I have felt those pains. I have endured those hardships. I have shared those joys and spent those tears. I have seen their visions and experienced their delusions.
Today it is scorching, only to sear higher the next few days (so much for "The Breath of Fall...").
I decided to spend the day unearthing my journals, my jotted notes, my words in time. The boxes have become as traveled and tattered as I have. They've endured dusty trails, snow covered paths, leaking domains. They have rested in some uninhabitable places (to most) and withstood the exposure of weather.
Yet their contents remain vivid, so truly real, expressing emotions and events as though they are playing out today. I've never been organized in keeping them safe. Some are in incomplete journal books, while others may be scribbles on a torn piece of paper; written in half filled tablets of all sizes, and on notebook papers galore. They are in no particular order. I never meant to chronicle my life nor do I believe it could be.
Today, sitting on the floor, with dusty boxes and scatters of paper surrounding me.....
I have decided to put some of my life out "there"...thinking someday I could possibly put an order to it....
....but probably not!
My life as Cowboy's Wife has seen no particular order or structure.
Life for me has been random.
Each day could have been a moment of yesterday, or relived a year ago.
My thoughts could be of a tomorrow not yet arrived or maybe the same of a decade ago.
My words show me that my life has been timeless. There was no beginning and there is no end. Circumstances, time, the heart and soul lead to the past, the present and the future.
They do not dissipate my life.
They are carefully wound around each other, some in twisted knots, and others smooth as silk...for they ARE who I am.
* * * * * * *
From time to time...maybe more than not...
My words of time will be scrawled here..."From My Journals...."


Theresa @ Take A Sentimental Journey said...

I wished I had kept a journal all these years . But I am NOT a writer. I cannot express myself well with the written word .Some people seem to have a gift of it . And I do believe you have the gift !
Have a blessed day !

Erin said...

I love that book so much that when I forgot to pack it on a trip last winter, I bought another copy at the airport.

Renie Burghardt said...

Hi Barb,

I love reading about writers, especially women writers-their essays, musings, etc. Montana Women Writers sounds like a wonderful book. Your posts are always interesting and thoughtful and lovely. I wrote a journal for many years, but quit a few years ago. I never seem to have time for it anymore. I may have to find my old journals and go back in time, when I was younger and decided to leave the city and go live in the country, and maybe become a writer. Well, I have been here 25 years, and it's been a wonderful experience-a blessing!

I always look forward to your beautiful thoughs and hopes and interesting life as a cowboys wife!

Have a wonderful day. Keep writing and dreaming and posting!



wordmama said...

What a beautifully written post Barb! True poetry. I can't wait to hear your journals.

Train Wreck said...

Ok, Here's the deal... You need to write a journal, ok? How about a book, or getting your "journals" published! Hello you have a talent for writing! You could sell it! Your Breath of Fall is wonderful! It makes you feel like you are right there, you can smell it! Hello have you not thought of this... Seriously woman! Or just words of inspiration from real life! I want the first copy though, I call! You have talent lady! BTW the next time I need a great title for a photo, I am sending it your way! Consider it...the book!

terri said...

I can't wait to read "From My Journals." You truly have a gift for writing and you've obviously been polishing your talents throughout the years!

JennyC&F said...

very nice. also, i posted a few pic's of the pecean trees and catalba

Amanda said...

I have been lost in thought and memory today. You write beautifully.

Razor Family Farms said...

"My words show my that my life has been timeless."

Those words have echoed in my mind since I first read your post and then sat here absorbing.

What a breathtaking summary of how it feels to reflect upon our past journeys and look toward our future trails.

Love this post.


Elliemae said...

Yippee! Journals! Your posts are so romantic, in the literature sense of the word. I can't wait for "Journals."

LL said...

So when can I buy your memoirs?

Alex said...

I'm going to have to check out some of the books you are talking about. I must be out of the reader's world... =/

JennyC&F said...

upon reading this post again, I caought the line, "Today it is scorching"... How hot is that?

The W.O.W. factor said...

Theresa, Renie~ Mine aren't journals "per se" as I said they are scattered on various papers...depended where I was in life, how I was feeling...and definetly NOT an everyday thing! I actually started as a kid...was kind of my way of escaping....

Erin~ Thanks for visiting! I'd never heard of this book until Prof sent it to me. I will treasure it forever!

Wordmama~You are wayyyyyy too kind Lady!I can't compare!

TW~Don't know that I could Title your art work! It's far superior to me writing my simple words!! I love your artwork! Why would anyone care about an old country gal's life when they can have beautiful artwork from you to place in their homes!

Terri~ "polishing" ? I would only call it "dusting off"...I don't know how to Polish anything! LOL!

Jenny~You need to turn your pix the right direction...got a kink in my neck now!! HeeHee BTW, Scorcher started w/Thurs @ 96, Fri was 101, today~ 105....tomorrow they say hotter!

Lacy~Thank you, you are ALWAYS so kind! You have the biggest heart ever!

Elliemae~Yippee?? You may end up
saying YIKES!

Amanda~some days are meant for just getting lost in our thoughts..Winter is when it generally hits me

Alex~this book is awesome!

~LL~ Heck...you won't need to buy it! You or TW! If I stay on here long enough in this blog world, & you stay tuned long
enough ....
it'll be here for what ever it's worth! ***LIKE FREE!

Train Wreck said...

Oh Silly WoW gal! Of course people would love to read your writing! My art only apeals to some. Great writing appeals to everyone! Books sell better don't you know? You don't see any on sitting in a cafe', or in a park holding a painting do you!? I would be honored and humbled for you to name one of my pieces! Are you trying to get out of giving me the first signed copy!??
BTW Meg Wants some advice on writing a book, check her post out today. I dropped your name! WHAT? You need to write a book I tell you! When you make your first million you can go on that vacation you need!

Train Wreck said...

Hey! When you quit chasin that handsome husband of yours around the house. Stop by http://www.plowingandsowing.blogspot.com/
I told him about you! How awesome a "writer" you are! He has a poet friend he just met. So I knew he would appreciate your talent! Love ya! Hope you had a "real" good weekend!

Sage said...

I don't have the patience to journal any more, the blog took over and even SOH prompts me to put something on there...a change completely. A book with empty pages used to scare me as to what I should write, and very rarely did. A blank screen urges me on to put down things that before I would never have thought of.

Great blog.. and trying to find you a box of rhubarb and blackberry tea - it is by twinings but it was a limited edition and may not be available yet.

Drop me a line at wise_herb at btinternet.com with your address and I will send you some of my current stock.

Shirley said...

I have a book that you may like to reead, called Another Montana Pioneer, by C. B. Evans, The memories of the sons and grand-daughters of C. A. Evans. It was written in 1960. If you would like, I'll pass it forward to you; I think you will enjoy the tales of bygone Montana days.

Professor said...

aw shucks! :)

I'm really glad the book has given you so much pleasure. And it does have that feel to make you want to write, to have your own similar life story set to paper, doesn't it? magical moments, for sure.