Hurry...Hurry...

...hurry, hurry, just so I can come home again?
Tending to the gardens, mowing the grass, laundry, packing, checking my lists twice! Making suppers for Hubby & Honey-do lists for my flowers & veggies! And I can't forget the little "Love Notes" I make for him & leave for his findings...in the coffee can, in a frozen prepared meal, in his boots, tucked in a pair of undies...hundreds of them EVERYWHERE! (I have 'trained' him over these years to always have me on his mind!...notes everyday...mornings before I get up, in his saddlebags when he grabs a snack, even on the roll of TP in his 'library' !)
He is always delighted, as if it were the first time!
I NEVER go anywhere...except in March, I went to see Heidi and her hubby, Chad & our awesome Grandkids in Calif.! Went for 10 days....and WOW! That was an absolute first! 10 days away from MY home in all these years, what a step! (and it was worth every minute, every hour to be with them! 10 days seemed like 10 minutes! Time was gone before I was ready!)
Yet, now, I'm headed to the big city of Minneapolis...another huge step for this hick country woman who never leaves home! Twice in a matter of months?? After all these years? Nope, won't get addicted...I promise. I love my home, my life, and my Hubby too much to let these travelings become a habit. Besides............they cost way-y-y- too much moola!

So today, I was taking a break on the front porch, listening to the birds singing the announcements of their new hatchling (who were chirping also), hearing the wailing of the calves being weaned in the corral, Tess & Millie barking out their frustrations at being tied up so as to not interfere with Keith's first ride on a new colt....
I was thinking....WHY? Why am I hurrying to get everything done, hurrying so this week will be gone, hurrying because that means next week will be here faster and gone faster...so I can come home again!
What a waste of energy! And selfish taboot!
My youngest niece is graduating....and I don't even know her! And I want to! She reminds me of me at her age (from what little I know about her, that is) ....oh the advise I could give her...but won't!

I decided sitting there, that all I ever seem to do these days is HURRY! Hurry! Hurry so I can move on to the next 'project' of life! I have always told my Hubby to "stop and smell the roses"....guess I'm a better preacher than I am at practicing what I preach!
We get one shot at life. Family IS important to me...even the ones I don't know too well. Seems as I've gotten older, and yes, slower....I want to be with family even more! We've always lived remotely (except in AZ, and everyone thought that was remote in the fact they thought they can't visit cuz they'd fry!) and we've always lived a different lifestyle than anyone else in our families. Not too many are willing to even stick their toes in, to test the waters...to see why we live this way. So coming back to Washington 3 years ago, was meant to show them all that if you won't come our way.....we will go your way! Just to be with family!

So no more Hurrying! What I don't get done, what I may have forgotten......
is not the end of the world.
I am going to go and have a wonderful time, savor every moment....cuz who knows, when the chance will arise again to spend some time with my sister and her family!
(I will worry....because that is what I do!...when it comes to my Hubby...I'll worry about another "thud" in the dust...with no one being within shouting distance...no one to miss his presence....I will worry... until each evening he comes in, hangs up his hat & picks up the phone to call me....)