Where's the song ~~ "Don't let your daughters grow up to marry a Cowboy" ?

​​​​​​​Life is tough! Requires hard physical work, long, long days of pain, dirt, and broken fingernails.​
​Days of frigid cold & scorching heat; through the dust & mud; daybreak into the darkness of nite~~​
​the heart & body becomes toughened & weathered replicating leather!​
​A forever constant factor for a real Cowboy's Wife is tons of sweat, oceans of tears and a constant 'drought' in the wallet!​
​​​​​​​​​IF​​​​​​​​​​​​​​ she wants to spend anytime at all with her Cowboy, she must do as he does, you become partners!​
​​​​​​Kick off your boots, grab a cup of coffee, sit back and envision yourself in my life!​
​... It really isn't that bad! There are many rewards to be had to make it a great lifestyle! ...​ ​​​​​​​

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Will things ever be good??

We've been in Texas 5 weeks!
The trip was uneventful...
I started work...learning to accept the humidity..
(love the heat without humidity!)
and then
on the 20th, I get a call..
My older sister had been been admitted to the hospital.
On the 24th another call at 10:30 pm
...she had had a heart attack..
 and was not expected to make it through the night.
I flew up to Washington the next day.
Was able to hold her hand....
Even though she was incoherent, I prayed that she knew I was there.
She passed away the next night.

I feel so lost...such a huge part of my heart, my life..has a hole, a void...
I cannot begin to describe...I can no longer spend long hours into the night chatting, giggling, crying with my sister Jan ..
The tears won't quit...but neither will the love I have for her...
I miss her so very much already.....

I lost my job...they would not hold it for me....not even a "I'm sorry..." was uttered.
But....I would not change the decision I made to be with her, to hold her hands...
to give her my love as she passed on....

Cowboy Wife


Muddy Boot Dreams said...

I am so sorry, words...are just not enough to convey how sad I am for you.

Virtual hugs my friend, once again life has let you down. But you made the best decision to go to her...your employer is a well you know the words.

Jen @ Muddy Boot Dreams

Shirley said...

I didn't read your last post about moving to Texas- probably because I was attending my mother-in-law's funeral that week.
So sorry to hear about your loss, I've been there. It's a blessing that you wre with her when she passed. ((((hugs))))
Any employer that won't give you bereavement leave isn't worth working for. On to better things! Hope you find just the right job.

DesertHen said...

I am so, so very sorry for your loss! There are no words! Sending you many hugs and my thoughts are with you at this difficult time!

fernvalley01 said...

So so sorry, I so wish could say or do more hugs my sweet friend

LL said...

Always something, isn't it WOWie...

*bighug* *smooch*

Mrs Mom said...

Oh W.o.W. I am so sorry to read this.

And the bastids at the job place? Yeah. They don't deserve you.

Thoughts and prayers are with you as always, just even more. We love you lady!

That Janie Girl said...

So sorry for your loss. Praying for you a new job!

Far Side of Fifty said...

Oh my such sadness..I am sending my sympathy and a hug from Minnesota. I hope you have luck finding a new job there...thinking positive thoughts for you! :)

Cheyenne said...

my dear friend...although we have never met, my heart truly weeps alongside yours. Grief is a difficult road to walk along, and although right now, no words, nothing anyone can do, can make things better and lift that weight...on this earth, know that you are not alone.

I'm so sorry.

Anonymous said...

I lost my younger brother 3 years in September. It's hard physically losing someone you shared so much history with. I hope in time you'll smile again when you think of her.

willow said...

i have been away from blogging (reading or writing) for some time and just now read this post. i am so sorry for your loss. i have lost a husband and 2 sisters in the past 3 years. i understand your heartache. ((hugs))

Susan Struck said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

The Wife said...

Oh my goodness. So sorry for your loss. And your job. I hope your time in Texas begins to get better. Humidity is horrible. I don't think you ever get used to it.

Lucia said...

So sorry for your loss, I too would be inconsolable if I lost my sister!!!
I can't believe they didn't hold your job or even say they were sorry for your loss. you made the right decision. take care and I hope you find a job soon!

Anonymous said...

Really sorry for your loss. There are really things that are beyond our control. Just don't loose heart and be hopeful.

Far Side of Fifty said...

Happy New Year..miss you:)

Anonymous said...

I came across your blog and once I got started, couldn't stop & had to read it all. I'm a late bloomer when it comes to blogs. Heard of them but never checked them out til recently. I sooo hope your July 2012 post isn't your last. Your little blog has touched me so. I can't explain it well, but somehow your stories gave me a fresh dose of hope that I sorely needed & a feeling that there really are honest to goodness, good people in this crazy world we live. Thank you & may God bless you & your family always!

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dickiebo said...

C'mon gal! Come back to your ol' pals!