We've been in Texas 5 weeks!
The trip was uneventful...
I started work...learning to accept the humidity..
(love the heat without humidity!)
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and then
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on the 20th, I get a call..
My older sister had been been admitted to the hospital.
On the 24th another call at 10:30 pm
...she had had a heart attack..
and was not expected to make it through the night.
I flew up to Washington the next day.
Was able to hold her hand....
Even though she was incoherent, I prayed that she knew I was there.
She passed away the next night.
I feel so lost...such a huge part of my heart, my life..has a hole, a void...
I cannot begin to describe...I can no longer spend long hours into the night chatting, giggling, crying with my sister Jan ..
The tears won't quit...but neither will the love I have for her...
I miss her so very much already.....
I lost my job...they would not hold it for me....not even a "I'm sorry..." was uttered.
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But....I would not change the decision I made to be with her, to hold her hands...
to give her my love as she passed on....
Cowboy Wife
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Will things ever be good??
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Willy Nelson sings it well...
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Plum Crazy...
...LIFE!
Things have been quite "eventful"!
Quite "chaotic"!
Quite "nerve wracking"!
Lately.
I don't know which side of the coin I'm on right now
so I cannot talk about these past couple of weeks!
Maybe by next mid-week I'll be calmer.....more informative...
So until then.....keep your fingers crossed!
Say a prayer or two!
And be patient....as I must!
Cowboy Wife
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Opinions Matter...
...sometimes...and depends what they are!
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
The Older We Get...
...Life happens/changes too fast!
I'm still here...just in a "zone"...forgive me, for I know this will pass.
I've been busy creating that "special project" for our son's return from the mid-east in March, and with the time quickly approaching for the one year 'anniversary', if that is what one calls it, of my worst day ever....my Dad's passing...on my "watch".....my emotions are a bit like being on a roller coaster!
With these thoughts and feelings sitting on the verge of ????, I got word last week of the passing of one of my favorite ladies...a blogger, an artist, a writer.....and an incredible woman! She was only 50 and up until the few weeks before passing, one would never have known she was ill. Her heart, her zest for life and her inspiration was bigger than anyone's I know! She sent me several pieces of her artwork from the UK a few years ago, and I will cherish them for ever. When I got the email from "her"....I was so excited to open it.....only it wasn't from her! But her daughter.
Losing my Dad....and now a very dear friend, I feel such an emptiness in my life....
Yet...I feel so blessed and happy that they filled my heart, my life and my mind with priceless treasures I can carry with me each and every day!
It is a hard time right now...and my Mom is having a tougher time...so I will be here sporadically, for awhile. I will head over to Mom's shortly, to hopefully help her through these weeks....and what would have been their 64th Anniversary.....the same day as Dad passed.
(Don't give up on me....I need you all in my life too!)
Cowboy Wife
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
What a Day!!
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and just couldn't remember when!!
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as I certainly have no one else's business I could get into ....
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...just staring out into the bleak winter scape...
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I've not had any urges to speak of, for quite some time.
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It came like a bolt of lightning striking me!
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I need to get busy on "The Project"
that our soon to be daughter-in-law requested...
several months back!
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Seeing as how it has taken Chad far too long to find "The Right" gal,
I don't want to jeopardize that relationship by not fulfilling my promise to her.
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(Nor do I want her to think badly of me....so soon!)
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I have about 50 days to complete and get mailed off,
for her to get it framed...
....before he returns from his deployment in the mid-east!
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So........
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@!*>~*
(actually...I said Shit!)
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Heck, I can't even see my table,
let alone sit in my chair!
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I tidied it up, organized my different elements,
and stashed some unnecessary items.....
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...almost clean enough to see |
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I found that I desperately needed to burn some papers.
(why? I asked myself should I trudge out to the burn barrel,
when I can burn in the fireplace?)
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But first....
I decided it was essential that I clean one of the fireplaces.
(Only one needed to be cleaned, as I only burn candles in the other!)
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certainly not this past year and half...
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Goodness! Gracious! Great Balls of Fire!
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T'was full of ashes, creosoted glass doors....
...and let me affirm...
Yes... still hot with embers!
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Grrrr....(and a few more @!*>~* words were blurted out)
.I had forged outdoors, mind you into a season I detest,
only to discover, it had a flat tire!
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Ok...It's Ok...I hushed myself...
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Not to worry...
just use one of the boxes I took from the spare room.
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Which I did.
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I worked quickly...
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"Hurry! Hurry!" I kept telling my stupid self.
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as I dragged it out the back door...
and then hoping it would rain....
Cowboy would get home to move it before it caught the house on fire!)
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I did not need to call 911.
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Except...that in my rush to not set me or the house on fire...
I'm covered in soot....
and so is everything in the room!
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I say to self...
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" and you may as well do the laundry while you are at it!"
"You just put on your last pair of clean jeans!"
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(7! yes SEVEN loads...and I have a heavy duty oversize machine..
...and there is only 2 of us! What does that tell ya??)
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Ok...Get back to what you were doing...
You can multi-task like a champion,
so get at it!
Daylight is a burnin'
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"Why don't you just plum clean the whole danged house?"
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And in the midst of dusting, vacuuming, scrubbing,
cobweb hunting, and laundering~
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of course there was the dust bunny round up too!....
(Oh...did I mention how surprised my hubby was when he sat down to watch TV tonight?
He hollers "Hey Honey....my eyes got better today!!"
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I haven't made a cake in a bazillion years!
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Is that obvious by the date? |
and I was NOT into making one from scratch today...
I had too many other things to do!)
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..(which doesn't hurt my feelings, as I believe nothing is more worthy for dessert than anything chocolate!)
I do not care for frosting, so I sprinkled with powdered sugar |
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I say to myself ...
as the cake enters the oven...
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"Yo Barb! since you are already making a mess in the kitchen,
why don't you make a royal mess?"
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and say "Hoorah!" "I did it!"
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But....instead....
Sunday, January 22, 2012
BRRRrrrr.........
(as I am entitled since I'm a lefty...oh, reminds me of something I read...will post another day)
...step
Cowboy Wife
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Reality Check...
Thanks TW for the note the other day...
It 'woke' me up.
It made me realize "Life goes on".
Now I just need to figure out where to start!
Cowboy Wife