The Terrible Twos are coming...

...and I'm not ready, willing, or able!

BUT...I'll buck up and face my demons!

This week I'm faced with TWO jobs.

At my paying job, I must start training yet another gal!

I've had to train TWO already in a short (?) nine months and that was after

I had barely begun to learn the feedlot business myself!

It's exhausting trying to teach a non-agricultural person the bare bone basics of cattle

so that they can comprehend even the tiniest of reasons of why their job requires accuracy,

attention to detail and timing!

Oh well...having TWO jobs for the price of one seems to be my agenda.

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Now...if you know me, you know there is more to this story of the Terrible TWOs!

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As for my Non-paying job??

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Cowboy...loses his TWO hands on Wednesday for TWO weeks.

After much a-do and years of excruciating pain

 ( and because I'm paying a fortune for him to be covered  with insurance at my job),

we decided it was time to see if he can be put back into good working condition

or if it was time to discard him to the Old Cowboy Wrecking Yard.

He went to TWO doctors, with more than TWO issues.

Both agreed he was old and rusty and broken down,

but there is hope that he can be reconditioned into a working Cowboy,

however never to be fully restored.

No, these "fixes" require more than duct tape and baling twine,

the only TWO items ever found in our first aid kit.

The neurologist said in his 30 years of practice, he's never seen this much damage,

with carpel tunnel progressing up to the elbow with so much nerve fraying and damage.

Let alone in TWO hands!

"How come you let it get to this point?"

The surgeon says "Do you realize, if you had ignored this and let it go much longer,

within 5 years, you'd have NO use of your hands!"

"You wouldn't even be able to hold a pencil!"

"How come you let it get to this point?"

Cowboy says to the TWO doctors...

"SURVIVAL!"

So, in this restoration process, we can only hope his knees hold out long enough!

(I know some of you have asked, since March '09 and that is another post in itself)

The next visit with the neurologist, will be to assess and decide how to proceed with the effects of nerve damage as it has "fingered" into his back resulting from the 'compensation factor'. 

Cowboy says no matter what...there will be NO surgeries on his back!!

Just fix my knees!!

They will get to those TWO extremities~ the TWO doctors proclaim.

But the restoration process cannot happen all at once.

We cannot afford that!

Nor can this W.O.W.!

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I'll be changing my name to D.O.W.

(Dumb Ol' Woman...Dead Ol' Wife)

soon enough!!

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Hey, I'm tough as a tiger (ha!) and I can handle most things that are tossed at me.

I can hold down the fort. I can be TWO people.

The TWO jobs, the animals, the feeding, cleaning, bandaging, etc. etc.

but there is one thing in this TWO stepping, TWO timing life I'm faced with

that I am NOT ready, willing or able to do!

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I've informed Cowboy

 that the sprinkler will be running 24/7

because

I

 refuse

to

wipe

 his

*s*!

  

LL...more to your expectations?

A much needed long weekend....

Gives this Worn Out Woman a chance to do NOTHING!

Hah...if you believe that, you don't know me very well....

But then again....

I've never met any of you or vise versa...

So who knows what the real Me is??

I'm still trying to figure that one out...

and I'm open to suggestions.

I do know for absolute certain tho...

This is Memorial Day,

a day of Remembrance...

for those who have served and sacrificed.

I grew up in a small US Naval community.

I knew many brothers, uncles, dads and good neighbors

who not only served in other wars but also in the Viet Nam times.

I not only witnessed the anguish and the heartaches

of those whose loved ones did not return,

but I will forever remember their pride and their strength too.

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I will never forget..........

and I salute them all!!

This is a test....

...it's only a test

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Am I still alive?

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Am I still a

The answer is.....yes!

And that is about all I'm sure of!

It's been quite a year since we made this transition in our lives.

Was it a good one?

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(it's taken me awhile to figure out how to get back into my blog and now that I have, I hope that my internet provider will get the issues fixed so I can stay on line longer than 10 seconds or 10 minutes)

GASP *&! ..GURGLE*@!

AHHHhhhhh! ... A breath at last!

It's been a l.o.n.g.......4 months since I posted...

Tonite I decided I very much needed to take a few moments, to see if blogging was still occuring or if some new form of communication had been developed in my absense.

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FYI...I am in the market for a new calendar & clock!

Ones that will give me back some days and hours!

...and even some seasons!

I'd pay dearly...if someone can scrounge them up!

My last post was barely a month into Spring,

and here it is now a month until Autumn! WOW!
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We have been working non stop since this new "adventure" came to us. Progress has been made, but it is slow, tedious and frustrating!

20+ years of neglect and abuse just may take forever

~if ever ~

to turn this place into half of what it was so long ago.

Do we have the stamina to do just that?

That is yet to be seen....

We promised ourselves we'd not push ourselves as in years past....

as it is not OUR place!

...but old habits are hard to break!

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DON'T EVER EVER judge a book by it's cover!

Remember, we had not seen the inside of this house before we agreed to take on this new direction in our lives.

We Knew what we were getting into with the barns, pastures, fencing etc.

But the house?

Foolishly, we thought

"It's a brick house! What could be wrong?"
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Well............we may not have said yes...

had we seen beyond the brick facade!

GRUELING beyond anything else we've tackled in our lifetime!

(and mind you, we have taken on many challenges...)

May 1 to July 1, was 7am - to wee hours of the night for me!

EVERY SINGLE DAY!

I cannot believe how some people live...and abuse!

The first night I "slept" here...on an air bed, I woke every 15 minutes unable to breathe!

At 2 am, I woke up Cowboy and told him that I'm too old to take on such a daunting task!

The grime, the filth, the stench! The next day, we called the owner and he scheduled a carpet cleaner for the following day.

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This started a a huge snowball effect...

one which, to this day, has not quit rolling!
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The night it was cleaned (they said it was the worst job they'd ever tackled!)

the urine smell was worse!

Cowboy's smeller doesn't work like mine,

maybe because he's around horse and cattle excretions all day,

but mine is fine tuned and it did not like what passed over the sensors!

I ended up sleeping in my car most of the night!

I came inside once to get a drink of water

...only to run to the toilet and puke!

I gathered my purse and the Yorkies,

ran back to the car and headed home to our other place!!
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Needless to say, before anything could progress within these walls,

the old flooring had to be removed, the floors and walls

primered with Kilz...several times.

The one and half year old carpet & pad was sooooo saturated

with cat and dog urnine, one couldn't have salvadged a

'clean' square yard of it if one wanted to!!

That was just the beginning...........

many many other daunting challenges,

disgusting discoveries have come to face us since May 1.

Luckily, my job's starting date got put off until July 1

because she saw what we were faced with here!!

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Our home an hour away, was becoming a burden...

watering, weeding etc...every waking hour and waning muscle

was needed for this place if it's ever to be comfortable

for us to make a positive 'go' of our choice to move here.

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We pondered for sometime on what to do...

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There are only so many hours in a day,

there is only four hands between us...

and the wanting for an "easier" life,

was increasingly becoming a tougher life!

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So...we advertised on CraigsList...to lease our home out.

Within 2 days, a gal from Boise, Id. with 2 kids wanted to lease it and be closer to her family.

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...As of last Wednesday....

that burden was taken off of our shoulders for the most part.

No extra hours have to be squeezed out of the week to tend to it;

no more double power bills, 2 yards to mow and maintain....

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So tonite, after spending a whole day of doing nothing....

truly nothing,

I decided I'd make a post....and then take one hour each evening

after work, to try and catch up with all of my friends

in the world of Blogland!

I've missed out on a bunch I'm sure! I know of two young gals who probably already had their babies and I missed the big event!!!

I know of one who was getting married...and I've missed out on all the fun!

But....

this week, I'm hoping to catch up on all of you!

I've missed all of you!

This W.O.W. is definetly triple W.O.W. these days....

but not ready to hang it up or to be turned out to pasture...

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maybe next week, I'll think so....